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Thursday, January 29, 2009

26Jano9. MONDAY

its 1st day of chinese new year.mummy's fren came my house early morning.they talked so loud until wake me up norss.weisze came over my house to bai nian at 5?gave her eat spaghetti still wan complain too watery.PUI!then we went out to bugis at 6plus to buy her bag.she bought this sling bag for 28bucks.same pricing as my big bag.lols!after buying she felt not worth.cus the difference very big :x after buying her bag.we headed down to jurong point.cus i planned to mit xm to pass him his present and chocolates.met him around 1o.3opm.then pei him his sis and some other people to shell to buy their cigg.buy finish le he say his ahgong ask them back to eat meefen.so nbm norr.me and sze waited at the void deck.wait for 5min then i suggested if she wana drink.so we went back to shell to buy some alcohol.waited for another 45mins then he say he dunwan mit me to get his stuffs cus he dulan parents for scolding him.then nbm norr.me and sze headed down to lakeside to meet her friend timothy.i called up yx to meet us too cus was feeling down.when we reached lakeside.i went to buy another 2bottle of alcohol.soon xm msg me ask me whr am i.he wanted to meet me.so he came along.we slacked at the stairs behind the mrt station.awhile more i went to buy another bottle of hooch.smoked alot that day also.so became super high.then did something that i regretted.i actually supported myself on xm's shoulder.bud he avoided.so i leaned on yx's lap.cus was really very giddy.bud we continued playing daidi.yx went home at 2am.sent him to take cab then went back to play another 2rounds before going home.before taking cab.me and xm was fine de.bud when i reached home.he msg me saying its over.i fucking regretted leaning on yx's lap.if i knew this will happen.i rather have my head aching then losing him.bud no matter wad i do now will never let him forgive me again.i cried bud no one cares.im hurt but still no one cares.it was a total toture to me.i love him.i knew that i love him.but it wun change the fact that he's gona leave me.i begged and promised.but he still wont forgive me.i felt so tortured.and that nite i got a hell lot of scolding from my mum for reaching home late.how i wish i didnt stayed at lakeside.how i wish i didnt ask yx down.how i wish we can be still loving as before.

27jano9. TUESDAY

2nd day of chinese new year.was being nagged to wake up from my sleep.she's still angry with me for reaching home late the day before.i really dun understand why.its only once in awhile.why does she need to be so aggitated.ARGH!headed to my nai ma house at 1plus 2.ate lunch at her house.her cooking is always the best!i love her cookinggg!she cooked curry chicken for me for dinner and my fave lotus soup.gosh.!i love her to bits.slept at her house at 3plus.was really tired.woke up around 6plus cus dinner is almost ready.stayed there till around 10plus then headed home to sleep.

28jano9. WEDNESDAY

school started.weisze never go school.she ps-ed me!pui!i went school for pe test then went to bedok to meet wj for lunch.headed back to school at 12.was late for gm lecture.sheilia came school to accompany me for lesson.love her mans!had gm practical at 2.aunty fong was kind to let us off at 4pm.first time sia.gosh.!then we headed to jurong to meet weisze to study for maths test.me and sheilia went to take our dinner.sze reach le then we headed to jurong library to study.couldn't get the mood to study.so played daidi in the library.studied for a few minutes then stop le.hahas.saw this person in the library.then me and sheilia bet if that person is a girl or a guy.i bet that person is a she.then sheilia bet that person is a he.who lose give who cigg.then i was right.the person is a she.wahahha!then sheilia spawn me cigg.hmss.stayed in the library till 8.30.then sze asked me if i had a ex staying in jurong.she called up timothy and ask for his name.yeah.it was eben.fucked up.finally found him.but its of no point.cus i know he'll never return me the money.hais.went down to lakeside to meet timothy to talk bout the matter until 11pm.still not settled.but he promised me to ask the cbk for the money.headed home..

29jano9 TODAY!

reached school late for 30mins.went QC&A lesson.they're having test.PUI!dun even know how to do sia.did 2qtns nia.lesson ended early.so went to c1 to eat chicken rice.LLA was free period today.we were given time to do our own things.so i went to sleep.was freaking tired.after lesson while walking to library.the fragrant smell from cafe heaven attracted me in for lunch.had spaghetti with pork chop.their spaghetti is as lousy as before.went library after eating.fell asleep after studying for awhile.went for maths test.couldnt do the last 2qtns.can pass can le bahss.dun expect much.school ended at 3pm today.went to bugis with sze to see bag.we decided to buy this pink bag.going back bugis to buy tmr.yeah yeah.!wana buy more bags!hehe.headed to jurong point to meet timothy.last min say his friend coming.was very dulan.last min another person pop out.nbm bahss.then was supposed to watch love matter at 6.45pm de.then the idiot timothy keep drag time never buy then ended up buying the tic at 7.15pm derhs.was about to go in for movie.he tell me say eben coming.he totally spoilt my mood.bastard sia.then say eben aso watching movie.wth sia.then ended up when eben reached he keep talking to them.then let me and sze wait there like one idiot sia.pui!then later they come and ask if we wana go in to watch the movie.the movie alrdy pass 30mins norr.go in for wad sia.at that point of time me and sze was boiling.so we went off to smoke.awhile later i asked timothy to meet up alone to talk.so he came to explained himself.so everything was fine le.met darling after that.slacked awhile then headed home.tmr gona end after 3.3opm.bored sia!siens!

there's something wrong with my computer.so i might not be able to update blog at times..

1/29/2009 10:09:00 PM

Monday, January 26, 2009

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!
MAY ALL UR WISHES COME TRUE!

STAY HAPPY AND HEALTHY PEOPLE!

HOPE EVERYONE WILL BE ABLE TO FIND THEIR TRUE LOVE!
AND LASTLY!
WEIXUAN LOVES YOU ALL!

XOXOXOXOXO!

1/26/2009 12:26:00 AM

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Dear Diary,

Is there any way to turn time back? I really dun wana lose him. I can practically do anything just to have him to forgive me. My life almost practically revolves around him. I felt so dark when he said he wana leave me. I just wish to have him by my side and be with him. I just wish to have a stable and last forever relationship with him. Is that really so hard? I realised that I've done the BIGGEST mistake to make him sad and disappointed over what I did. I felt the importance of him in my life. Promising him never to visit his blog or do anything that relates to him. I just need the last chance for him to forgive me. And i swear that I'll try my best never to disappoint him again. Thats all I need. My mood changes anytime when he says thing that will make any impact on me. When he says I love you, I smiled as though I'm the most fortunate person on earth. When he ignores me, I felt so dark just wishing that I can isolate myself in one corner to cry. When he says he wana leave me, I feel as though there's nothing on earth can make me happy anymore. My heart shattered when he ignored me and asking his mum to bluff me that he's out and asked me to stop calling me. At that moment, I felt hopeless in life. I felt that there's no hope in my life anymore.

Dear diary, I need him. I really do..

Feeling lost and hopeless

1/25/2009 06:22:00 AM

Dear diary,

Its been awhile since i last blogged. I'm sad and hurt badly. I'm lost. He left. I'm all alone now. All I need is him to forgive me. Though I know it will never happen. Now, with all those broken promises. I dont know what I'm aiming in my life anymore. I will never believe in love again. It sucks so bad. The scars left will never be healed. Now, my heart feels as if it has been stabbed and shattered in to bits and pieces which will never be fixed back by anyone except him. All those words that were said were being taken back. There's no such thing as true love. There's no such thing as last forever. I'll never believe this anymore.

I know I'm going to change and I will. A better girl or a bitchy girl, I'm not sure. But im 99% sure that I'll change to the worst I can be. No more nice side of weixuan. No more soft hearted and kind weixuan. Its all over. No happy ending. No trust. No promises.

Say BYE BYE to the nice weixuan and HI to the evil and hateful weixuan.

Bye diary..

1/25/2009 01:08:00 AM

Monday, January 19, 2009

boring!

almost died at home dis 2 days.

afta what happened.

it seemed that me and him de relationship turned beta.

hope this will last forever.

tmr is proj presentation.

my group like never do anyt.

lols!

cfm die.

pray tmr will drag.

so can present on thurss instead. (:

the ans for yest's question is:

stupid weixuan will jump off the boat.

why?

cus clever weixuan doesnt exist.

farkk taizi.

say me.

PUI!

1/19/2009 12:19:00 AM

Saturday, January 17, 2009

TO: VINN~

-if u happen to pass by my blog-

i cnt see ur blog.

my comp got problem reading ur script.

change eh ):

cnt read!!

1/17/2009 10:18:00 AM

neck stiff.

headache.

giddy.

woke up in a terrible state.

friends scolded me stupid.

i guess i really am.

bud its was becus i trusted him.

it was the first time that i was so serious in someone.

where i made and kept so many promises.

bud i guess no matter what i do it wont make any diff bahss.

taizi ask me a qtn last nite.

there is a clever weixuan and a stupid weixuan on a sinking boat.

guess who will jump off the boat first?

the answer will be announced tmr.

1/17/2009 10:08:00 AM

Friday, January 16, 2009

mood swing until super jialat.
my mood changes everytime cus of him.
wed sheilia see me sad until pat my head.
i tired to smile when i was on the way back home with them.
bud it seems so fake.

i was really happy though.

at least she noticed and didnt attitude me.

i tried my very best to not tink so much.

but i just kept thinking.

i duno whats wrong with me.

my heart is aching so painfully.

i somehow jus feel like ending everything.

i feel like giving up on myself.

bud i'll do my best to keep the promises i made no matter wad.

lots and lots of thoughts.

duno how to post.

i'll stop blogging before i started crying again.

*poof*

1/16/2009 10:51:00 PM

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

given up..

带我走到遥远的以后带走我一个人自转的寂寞

1/13/2009 01:49:00 AM

Monday, January 12, 2009

complicated feelings.

i dun even know my actual feelings.

it was a mistake that i didnt see his true colours earlier.

it was a mistake for knowing him.

it was a bigger mistake for liking him.

eggy was right.

i so buang.

not as if he will like me.

i must be dreaming.

not even anyone will like me.

just feel like giving up on myself.

guess its true that buangsters will never get their true love.

maybe im just fated to be single and not being loved by anyone.

1/12/2009 09:07:00 AM

SPEECHLESS

1/12/2009 01:02:00 AM

Sunday, January 11, 2009

now i noe that he's just a big fat liar.!

thank god i get to know the truth now.

i had to give up.

its hard to accept the fact.

bud i noe i have to.

told dabian from now.

if i cnt find anyone i love and vice versa.

i gona stay single for life.

i dunwan marry.

dunwan find bf.

just wana be alone.

then grow up got money i go abopt one twins.

then see dabian get married.

i happy le.

lols.

rethard rites?

hmss.

ive given up le.

i chose it this way.

and i'll make it happen.

ive totally given up.

no point continuing get bluffed.

i need no one.

1/11/2009 01:19:00 AM

Saturday, January 10, 2009

my scenses were woken up.

was being lectured.

thans to cher and eggy.

i love them loads.

now i know what to do lerhs.

thans loads.

CNY coming soon.

can take ang bao again.

wahaha!

can go shopping aso.

yay yay!

boredom!

i hate this feeling.

when can i find my real love?

hais..

1/10/2009 05:39:00 PM

Friday, January 9, 2009

i guess afterall.
im still not of any importance to u.
i naively think that u loved me.
i naively feels that we are togther.
but i realised.
it seems that we arent togther.
i cnt stop myself from tearing.
i cnt stop myself from thinking of u.
its just my retribution i guess.
i really feel like giving up on myself.

u said u wana attention.
i give u.
u said u wana people to cook for u.
i will.
u said u wana people to love u whole heartedly.
im willing.
but everyting seems to be not right.
mayb its me who think too much.
mayb its me who dun have faith in myself.

and.
u just cnt seem to forget them.
yeah.
i noe im not chio.
i noe im buang.
i guess its just my fate.

1/09/2009 11:49:00 PM

Thursday, January 8, 2009

just edited my skin again.

its so freaking cute canss!

damm pissed now.

freaking woke up at 6.

then mum keep say i dunwan sleep use comp.

freak la!

whats her problem sia.

off to prepare for school le.

school is boring with a lesson at 8am.

to:andy♥

i really duno what happened to u in such a short period of time.

i just want to let u know that you are not always alone.

u still have me.

u still have Neko Darling.

we will always be there for u.

hope u'll feel beta after a few days.

1/08/2009 06:31:00 AM

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

OMG!

my comp is being repaired finally!(:

HURRAYS!

done downloading audi le.

hahahs..!

bored siol.

duno wad to blog.

school reopened.

trying to make the effort to go to school.

arbo cant go for attachment.

shyt aunty fong.

arghs!

wadever.

been running on sat and mon with louise.
jog non stop.

improvements!

lols.

hoping to have my dream come true! (:

a sudden decision for all these is for him.

1/07/2009 12:59:00 AM

Friday, January 2, 2009

THIS IS THE LAST TIME IM GOING TO SAY.

PEOPLE!

IF U FCUKING HATE ME.

WHY BOTHER COMING TO MY BLOG?

U TINK I GIVE A SHIT BOUT WHO ARE U?

U TINK I GIVE A SHIT THAT I LIKE U?

THE ANS IS NO!

U NOT HAPPY U CAN JUST FCUK OFF!

I ONLY APRRECIATE PPLE WHO LOVES ME AND TREASURE ME.

STOP TRYING TO DO STUPID THINGS TO BREAK MY FRIENDSHIPS WITH MY LOVED ONES.

I CAN TELL U ITS NO USE.

1/02/2009 04:55:00 PM

TO: ANONYMOUS

THANS FOR TAGGING ME!(:
i just wana tell u this.
i emo ur fcuking business har?
i dun even give a shit that u wana care.
cus ure no one to me..

hmss.
u dun like me?
then fcuk off..
not as though i love u wad.
read my disclaimer before tagging.

people who truely respect me and know my char will love me.
or ur jus plain jealous that u have no true friends to love u?
i guess im right.(:
to me..
i believe that true friends dun BYTCH and STAB people behind people's back.
not like u.
instead LEARN from my neko darling!

and
THANS TO U.
i scolded my darling for noth!
bud i wana thank u for letting us quarrel.
this let me know who was true to me.
we patched cus we treasure each other.
from here i wana say.
I LOVE MY NEKO DARLING!

and.
i hong got ur business meh?
not as if u dun hong what?
or ure jealous?
say la!
dun nid ka pple jw de.
i wun blame u for not having a life. (:

hmss.
thans uhs!
i know im a attention seeker.
bud i only seek attention from the people i love.
unlike u.
u no one to seek attention from rite?
pity u.
bud i wun bother to seek attention from a bytch like u...

1/02/2009 12:32:00 PM

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